"An experience I had involving adult entertainment"

So everyone knows how the economy is right now how people are losing there jobs and getting laid off right? So I figured I would consider an adult job because I have been out of work for about a year. Its this agency called Cash Models that Edward James is the producer of, this agency and the producer also have had many models from his videos pose in Black Inches too. I had been trying get with this agency since the end of last year but I never got a response back. Then all of the sudden this year I get an email sent to my account from Edward James saying that he was interested and wanted to have me shoot my first video the week of my spring break so he told me to check bus and flight tickets because his business is based in downtown Atlanta and I am from Kansas City Mo. So then I check the prices and get back with him he had his personal assistant tell me that they are no longer interested in having me do a video and that they found better looking models and that my looks wasn't good enough. The situation really has affected me emotionally and mentally because he had pretended that he was so interested in having me do the video and that he was so interested in my look then for him to say that he was no longer interested hurt my feelings. Since then my confidence have been a little down and looking in the mirror isn't the same I wonder why I wasn't good enough we all have flaws and insecurities.